Whats it like to be fat-personal facts written by a fat person.

1.It's uncomfortable. When I go shopping I see all these skinny girls (especially at my age) and I sometimes wish I were like them. Especially when I buy clothes because sometimes I want to buy these really cute clothes but I can't wear them because I’m not comfortable wearing it in my size.

2.I’m ashamed. I know that I can make a difference and I know that I have to power to change that but sometimes I just don’t. Instead I just lay around doing nothing.Believe me when I say its hard changing. I’ve tried multiple times but sometimes I’m not able to. I’ve worked out everyday for 2 weeks and then things just started happening.

3.It’s common in my family. My grandfather has diabetes, my dad has diabetes, maybe even my brother. My family is made up of big people. When my dad and brother come home every weekend, we’re almost always at a buffet or a restaurant. And my father is always forcing me and my mother to eat more. Just a constant “Eat more” or “You’ve barely eaten your food”. These are usually said when 

4.I wasn’t always like this. I used to be a little chubby in maybe 5th grade. But once I entered middle school I developed a bit of a eating disorder. First, it started by not eating in school. No one really noticed it and I always said “I don’t like the food at school” Then my brother was always a bully me and sometimes he would make me cry so hard that I’d throw up, so that kind of triggered something in me which was like”You barely eat, the only thing left to do is get rid of the food you do eat”. 7th grade was the occasional (barely remember) “I feel fat” throw up but I had P.E so I was very active. And 8th grade was the “I’m not hungry excuse.” 

5.I try to lose weight. Even though I’m not active everyday, I sometimes find myself making these conscious decisions around my weight. Like I order a salad or buy food like yogurt. I drink way more than 25 oz of water a day. I  go to the park and walk. I’ll want to play just dance (unfortunately Lola (my bunny) got behind the tv and chewed up my kinnect wire), and just other stuff like that.