Blogging Through Life

Its almost Thanksgiving and pretty soon December will come and pass as well.... The year has flew by so fast. It feels like ages since I've graduated... But its actually only been 10 months... 10 months since I've seen my friends or have walked down a school hallway... I've worked one day.. Yet here I am writing feeling so lost.. All I've ever known was school... I haven't work in 3 weeks and I can't help but feel so helpless right now.. But I know that soon I'll find my purpose.. For all I know, I could be feeling this way because I'm listening to Sam smith.. But either way, the year's not over yet....

So I watched The Office for the first the other day.. At first I was like "It's OKAY" But then its like I slowly became addicted... Now I've been watching it for 3 days straight. I like the whole Pam & Jim thing that's going on. And I although Ryan always talks about breaking up with Kelly, I feel like that's never gonna happen. I'm only on season 3 so I'm not sure what is going to happen but I'm honestly excited for what might happen...

Hot Cheetos - I practically grew up with a bag in my hand and I've had one ever since. Hot Funyuns - When I first tried these they were super hot. But over time I liked how hot. Now I finish a big bag in like an hour. Cucumber with chamoy and lucas - Mmmmmmm.I’m hispanic so I tend to lean toward the spicy stuff. Chips and Queso - My favorite are from Mama Margie’s or I’ll settle for Taco Cabana.  Chips and Dip - Lightly Salted Lay’s chips and some Ranch dip. Chex Mix (Cheddar) - I like cheese and when I get it, it gives me that road trip feeling. Funyuns - I can eat the whole bag in an hour. Beef Jerky - I like the one they sell in this meat market in Castroville, Tx. Fruits - watermelon,strawberry, grapes…..and them you put in in a cup and trow some lucas on that bitch!!!… sorry. Kinda hungry. Candy -Skittles and M&Ms. I also like some Mexican candy but I can’t remember the name.

I'm not exactly feeling well. So here's a little inspiration for today. ❤

1. I went on the Boomerang . It had been 2 years and I had completely forgotten what happens, but I got on anyway. It went all the way up. I was practically hanging from the seat restraint thing. And for a person with my weight- that’s terrifying. My back wasn’t even touching the chair. Then when we went back down.I first felt fear then it happened. I felt the rush. I couldn’t stop smiling and screaming as we went through all the twists and turns. I felt the adrenaline pumping through my veins. It was such a rush. It reminded me how fun roller coasters were and how my fist one was California Screamin'. It was also the best way to start our day. 2. I went on the Road Runner . Unfortunately we weren’t first on the Road Runner like we were on the Boomerang. But we got there. I had decided to keep my glasses on- which was a mistake. My glasses have a habit of sliding down my nose. So although this ride was fun, I was constantly fixing my glasses. I also didn’t get the same rush I h...

1. It's uncomfortable . When I go shopping I see all these skinny girls (especially at my age) and I sometimes wish I were like them. Especially when I buy clothes because sometimes I want to buy these really cute clothes but I can't wear them because I’m not comfortable wearing it in my size. 2 .I’m ashamed . I know that I can make a difference and I know that I have to power to change that but sometimes I just don’t. Instead I just lay around doing nothing.Believe me when I say its hard changing. I’ve tried multiple times but sometimes I’m not able to. I’ve worked out everyday for 2 weeks and then things just started happening. 3. It’s common in my family . My grandfather has diabetes, my dad has diabetes, maybe even my brother. My family is made up of big people. When my dad and brother come home every weekend, we’re almost always at a buffet or a restaurant. And my father is always forcing me and my mother to eat more. Just a constant “Eat more” or “You’ve barely e...

Honestly now that I've graduated high school I don't know what to do. I did want to go to college but I didn't exactly know what I wanted to go for.... Like honestly.... Okay I wanted to go but for reasons that didn't have anything to do with education but damnit.. That's on hold for now. Now I'm just in my room doing nothing and you know what? It feels pretty great.

So lately I've been obsessed with "Bad Liar" especially the choreography I find online like WOW... Some people are so amazing and talented and I've got no rhythm whatsoever.  So I'll just put the song below. Bye :).

This is going to sound really depressing btw.  One of my favorite childhood memories is about me and my sister. My sister is older than me. She became a mother when I was five. So I didn’t really have the luxury of having that sister experience. For example, we didn’t really share secrets, and I never learned about makeup, and I didn’t have anyone to help me get my permit. I’ve always been jealous of her childhood because she got the childhood with the young fun parents, grew up with cousins,had a bunch of girlfriends, and was a heartbreaker with the guys. I got the older parents,the cousins I grew up with involved a sexual assault case and my sister was just known as a second mother. But I have this memories of when she would go out with her friends and every night she would come to my bed and sleep with me. I didn’t even care that she reeked of alcohol. For those night’s she was my big drunk sister. 

Just recently I came to the conclusion that I was going to pursue a career in education A.K.A become a teacher. The word “teacher” has always been on my list on possible future careers along with “journalist, writer, social worker,actor, businesswoman(?), veternarian, and masseuse.” However, I never really thought about it seriously because every time I thought of teaching only one thing came to mind, crappy pay. For the longest time I thought about money and “what job pays the most without much effort? A.K.A no degree” I wanted to get a job that wasn’t really a job but payed a lot. And I didn’t want money to spend it, I wanted money to save it. I kept thinking of my parents. I thought that they deserve more than we currently had, and I wanted to give it to them no matter the cost. But now I don’t know what I want.

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Portable Charger- This can come in handy in case you don't have access to a outlet or if your on the go and your phone is dying. Charger Wire and box- Although if you do happen to find an outlet you can charge it from there instead of using your portable charger. Car Adapter-Even if you have one in your car, it's handy to keep one with you in case you are in someone else's car and they might not have one or are already using it. Earbuds- To keep away annoying people or just to simply listen to some music. Pads/Tampons- You never know when aunt flow comes to town. Gum-Bad breath? No thanks. Floss/Toothpicks-Just in case you have a lunch that sticks in your teeth. Pen- Comes in hand when you need to write something down. Makeup- Just a little touch up couldn't hurt. Deodorant- Stinky pits, need I say anymore?

Golden Wok - Chicken and Broccoli . Don’t forget the egg drop soup . Bush’s - Chicken Tenders Always. Although one time I went they tasted weird. Bill Miller’s - Chicken tenders most of the time and every once in a while a Poor Boy … or should I say BOI? Rudy's - Turkey wrapped in bread with barbecue sauce … Don’t forget the cream corn !! (Always get the big size. Bejing Express - Usually chicken and broccoli but every once in a while some lemon chicken . Chilis - I always get the honey chipotle chicken crispers with fries and corn but I once tried the sliders and they were pretty good. McAlister’s Deli - I usually get the McAlister’s Club (because I love sandwiches) but sometimes I’ll get the Spud Max or both with the choose 2 (excellent deal btw.) Olive Garden - I love the salad and Fettuccine Alfredo . I loved the salad so much I went and bought the dressing. Best decision ever! Chicken Express - Chicken Tenders with fries .There isn’t one in my cit...

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1.Cruise For my 15th bithday instead of spending money on a quinceanera, I told my parents "instead of spending money on a party why don't we just go somewhere." It was the best decision ever. I strongly recommend going on a cruise at least once. 2.Las Vegas (Not once but twice) The first time I went, it was a family road trip. I had a lot of fun (probably would've had more if I didn't have my period for half of the trip.) The second time I went, we flew (it was my first time in an airplane ps. Is it weird to get gassy when we got off the ground?) Don't worry I didn't fart but my brother did. 3.Disney Land or World? (The one in California) It was my first time away from my parents. I cried the first night but I ended up telling myself that the next day we were going to have fun, my parents were okay, and in a couple days I would be going home.

I’m a virgin.  Yes. I am an 18 year old virgin. I’m not saving myself for marriage or anything but I’ve never really been a relationship or even had any guy friends (except this gay guy and this nerd). It’s not really a big deal to me although sometimes I feel left out because my best friend has had sex and she’ll tell me stuff and I just can’t relate. I watch anime. I am currently watching Fairy Tail.  I have really curly/thick/frizzy hair. I got the thick hair from my dad and the curls from my mom.. I probably gave myself the frizzy part because .. I straightened my hair everyday throughout middle school. Yup. I didn’t like my curly hair…. So I (my mom)would spend an hour every morning straightening it. I’ve always wanted a horse. When I was little I was so obsessed with horses that my mom bought me some subscription or something and I got a stuffed horse, a comic book about a girl and a horse and a book about horses…. Sometimes I still read the comic book. I rea...

1.Dynamite- Taio Cruz This one would always pop up in my head and I could never forget it. 2.Eenie Meenie- Sean Kingston ft. Justin Bieber Believe it or not I was a Belieber. Believe was like the second concert I went to other than the Jonas Brothers *Sigh* I remember when this song came out I was so obsessed that me and my niece made a dance to it that we performed in front of my family….. *CRINGE* 3.California Gurls- Katy Perry Ah yes… This was my summer song…. which would end up being replaced by TGIF. 4.Don’t Forget-Demi Lavato I remember singing this to my non-existent ex boyfriend..This was my 2nd go-to song on Sing It!…. 5. 7 Things-Miley Cyrus We can't forget this one... Especially since people keep posting it on Instagram... 6.Get Back-Demi Lavato This was my #1 song on sing it… I probably still remember some of the words... 7.Hips Don’t Lie- Shakira I didn’t hear this song when it came out but years later it ended up ...

1.Blue Heat Necklace When I saw this necklace it just reminded me of Rose and I really like it so I ended up buying it. I bought it at a store in Las Vegas (I think) called City Life USA. I looked online but couldn't find it. BUT if you search "Blue Heart Necklace" on Etsy, you'll find some that look very similar. 2. Infinity Ring This is the same ring I wrote about in my "10 Things I Can't Live Without" (Again I apologize for those pictures but I was bored....) I got it from James Avery and I wear it everyday. 3. Bow Ring This was a present I got for Christmas from my sister. I like it a lot because it's very simple and very cute. It's from James Avery. 4. Ball Earrings These are my absolute favorite earrings and I wear them everyday. I got these earrings from Claire's the same day I got my second piercing. I also remember the lady freaking me out. 5. Owl Earrings I got these from Walmart maybe like a year ago....

*Warning: You are about to see some crappy drawn pictures. Sorry! * 1. My Laptop I got my Macbook Pro about 4 years ago as a Christmas present and I’ve always loved and used it since then. It's my precious O_O.  2. My Phone The phone I currently have is an LG G4. I use it from the moment I get up to the moment I go to bed, playing Clash of Clans, watching Netflix, or just scrolling through Instagram (Mostly Memes.) 3.My Bunny I got my bunny last year during Easter and I’ve had her ever since. She loves hopping around and trying to ruin my life. 4. My Family Sometimes they can be a bit much but in the end they’re my family so.... What can I do right? 5. My  Jewelry I have an eternity ring and a charm bracelet and they have a lot of meaning to me. (P.S: My dad is still currently over there....It's been 2 years.) 6. My Bed Who could not live without having a comfy bed to snuggle into e...