Blogging Through Life

I was playing Sims the other day and it was clear to me that life is like Sims. It's a blink of an eye only we don't realize it until it's too late. And as long as it's well lived, it doesn't matter.

I don't know why I care so much about him. I don't know why I care so much about what she said. Yet somehow they say she's a horrible person yet I feel like the monster. She told me horrible stuff. Yet I did nothing to her. 3 weeks later I touch her hair and said its pretty yet she yells at me to leave her alone. How can I leave her alone when she's always with my best friend, and my best friend is always with me.

Confession: I absolutely hate my friend and I can't stand her because she's an annoying lil b****. And I told her that all she said was "you know a lot of people tell me that, but I'm trying to break that habit." Hey I was trying to be honest by telling her how I felt. Anyways yea whenever she's a bitchy and says stuff I get mad and tell her stuff back and she's all " Ohh someone's in their rag." So now what I do is ignore her except my earphones broke so she actually tried talking to me. Lucky me.                ~That Girl

When I was in 7th grade I had my first boyfriend. We were together for two weeks before we actually kissed. When we kissed it surprised us both. But for me it was absolutely amazing. Maybe its because he was my first kiss or that I loved him so much and that it meant so much to be kissed by someone I loved so much. We were together for a month but then summer was coming up and I knew we would never be able to see each other during the summer. So I broke up with him. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But I managed to let him go. It was hard especially since I was in love with him, and he was there for me when my uncle was dying. But I had to let him go. 2! Weeks after we broke up, he called he. He said that he wanted me to get back with him. He said he loved me. But yet one month later, he dumped me. It broke my heart. I know that it was his choice but he never told me why he broke up with me. He left me guessing and guessing.      But when school start...

I swear without cable or internet I am going crazy. I was fine without the internet because I was still able to watch TV . But with both of them gone... I can't do nothing! When I come home I check every social network that I have an account to and then by the end of the day I usually watch a good  movie. But now every time I get home I just sit doing noting. Missing all my favorite shows that I've loved since the moment they aired on TV. Now my parents are strict. Which means I'm home everyday unless school,  going out to eat, or dentist appointments. No lie. But when they do take me out. I try to get everything in sight. So I suggest that they pay the bill or take me to the bookstore every 3 Weeks. And when we go I usually get $50 worth. Hey but the choice is theirs.                ~ That Girl  ❦

As I wait in the waiting room I hope that none of this is my fault. I rather it be the poison then some outrageous and contagious than some serious disease that I gave to my family. I'm wondering "Am I going to be okay?, What if my friend get this because of me?, what if it takes long to heal?, what if I need surgery?,.... To be honest i'm terrified to what I don't know.... My mind is thinking "Are you crazy??!! You should've kept quiet!" But deep behind my fear, I hear "Everything is gonna be okay. Just let them check you and we'll get through this together."  But what if I'm alone in this? What if they blame me for everything that has happed?          ~ That Girl Oh and happy hump day ^_^

Have you ever liked a guy then you start hanging out with him and you get close and just when your about to make your move your bff is all like "OMG!! I think he's cute. We would make a cute couple!"  (Ok maybe she didn't say it like that but it was very similar.) But anyway he get's to your head and your just like "Maybe they would make a cute couple……" So you ask if he likes her and the next words just shock and break your heart at the same time.  Those words…………           "Of course I like her. She's so beautiful and funny. I'm gonna get with her and thanks for telling me."               Thats it you lost him. -sigh-    But eventually she broke up with him because she realizes that she doesn't like him.  Like seriously people are so dumb. Do people even date anymore?!! It makes me so mad when people get together before they even know each other. It's one thing to think someone is cute but ano...

....... *Awkward* Yeah this is pretty awkward because I'm totally out of ideas or maybe I just have writer's block. But either way I don't know what to write about..... How bout that weather though? Ha this is pretty boring... Anyone else anxious of the season premiere of  "Once Upon Time","Revenge", and who can forget "The Vampire Diaries"?? Huh anyone? Ha I am so weird. Ok bye :)..   Almost forgot.........                                     ~Good Luck :D ~                                                                                   -That Girl :)

 Send week of school ended. I wonder if this year is going to as fast as last year did. My dad said that high school is going to be the best four years of my life. But everything is so different and doesnt seem real at times. I miss my friend Brandy so much but theres nothing I can do about it because she goes to another school but I miss her so much and she's been my  best friend for so long and she's just gonna be a big lost to me and my other friends.                       Anyways lets talk about other stuff going on. Okay this sounds crazy but everyone is saying that Obama is the Anti-Christ or something. But I don't know it freaked me out so if you want to know more just watch the video on youtube. It's basically a video where they explain how and why. So yeah okay next subject.        Also this morning I got on twitter and saw a hashtag that broke my heart. Its was #RIPMalery and I  ...

                    So yesterday was the first day of high school for me. You should of saw me. I remember constantly saying to my mom " Do I have to go? Can you come with me? Where do I go? What do I do" and so on. But at least she walked me to the door. But I managed not to look to scared. But eventually I got lost. Bummer. I also fell down but when no one was looking. Thank goodness. But today we talked about the word resilient and it reminded me of how I picked myself up when I fell down, and how I didn't give up and call my mom to pick me up. Although she probably would've ignored me. But anyways If you can believe in yourself, you can overcome any obstacle you come to face.                                                            ~ Good luck ~          ...

      School starts next week.... Yay. I guess. To be honest I went to take a tour since this year will be the first year of high school. Anyways, it felt weird I was walking the halls knowing that I would never see my best friend ever again.Then later today I found out I won't be seeing either of my two best friends. Yeah I know it sucks. But everything is going to change. But on the bright side I'm getting a new phone and a camcorder. Hopefully I will be able to get a cat this year. But If I don't I made a promise to myself to volunteer with an animal shelter during next summer. But until I begin going on with the future we need to end this year. So once those doors open, I will walk in with my head held high and put on my most confident look I have because my life starts with me.                                                ~ Good luck ~  ...

Why is it that when I try to do something, I always ends up screwing up. The title means that I hate myself for doing things that I can't forgive myself. I know I'm not exaggerating because my own sister called me an asshole, then slammed the door in my face. Mandy, If you ever read this I just want to say I'm sorry and I hate myself for everything I did. Also if you noticed the scars on my forehead, I just wanted to say that you didn't cause those. You probably think this post is disturbing but then if you compare yourself to me then you should be grateful that you're one of those lucky people out there who has people who care about you and you can trust to tell them everything. I've never actually caused self harm but I can't take it. A new school comes with new bullies and I can tell the next 4 years are going to be hell.                                               ...

When you are with your friends, do you ever wonder if they're truly your friends? If they're truly your friends, they would stay with you through all the tough times. But sometimes they fade, and it's like nothing happened. They leave while you just stand there like "WTF just happened?!" But yeah. It's nothing we can do about it. It's their loss and if they need something from me, well to bad cause you're not my friend. But the person that they used to be will stay with us forever.  I also want to mention the actor Cory Monteith's Death. He was a talented and amazing actor and he was a really great singer. For Gleeks everywhere my prayers go out to Lea Michele and Cory's friends and family.                                     In Loving Memory                          Cory Monteith     1982-2013 

 It was Wednesday. As I started cleaning up, I came upon a bracelet. It was a purple beaded bracelet, and in the middle was a circle pendant with the shape of a cross on it. So many memories flew through my mind of my childhood years. Memories of one person in particular. Memories of a best friend who wasn't so much of a friend. Her name was Daniela. It was the first day at a new school, I was kind of nervous because I didn't know any body and didn't know where to go. I sat in the second table from the teachers desk, behind a girl with jet black hair in a tight ponytail. "Hi." She said with a smile. What do I say? What do I do? All I did was smile. I was shy. Later throughout the year we became best friends. I went to her house, though she never came to mine. My house was an embarrassment compared to theirs. Everything was so hard that year, my mom worked so hard to provide. I never saw my dad, he was always too busy working but every morning he would kiss me on ...

Everything is just so stressful to me. Why? Because the talent show was on Friday and so was my birthday. The talent show is where we first got together and my birthday is when we had our first kiss. Which means we didn't kiss until weeks went by. For some reason I just can't get over him. Part of me yearns for me to move on, while my heart begs to never give up on what we had. Even though he was my boyfriend, he was also my friend. 

Ugh! Why can't they understand that I'm no longer a child. Even though I'm the youngest of my siblings that doesn't mean I'm a baby! My birthday is next week and last year was my last party and a couple months ago I made a deal that I'm going to start earning my own money and that I shall no longer ask for stuff. It's not fair that they're telling me crap when I'm doing the thing I promised to do. And since Leslie's birthday is next week too. But I'm trying to take this last minute baby sitting gig when my mom tells me no. How dare her! It's my only chance to earn this money. Last month while I was at hobby lobby I saw this sketch set, and since Leslie loves drawing I decided that I would buy it for her.  But I totally forgot how expensive it is, And now I can take this gig and buy it. If I don't have enough total, I'll just buy her the small set. But I don't think she cares about how big it is, cause I know it'll make her...

I keep telling myself that I'm over him, which is an obvious clue that I'm head over heel and there's no way of bringing myself back to reality. When there's a way that not even I knew. He is my reality. Sounds crazy right? But it's the truth. He keeps my head out of the clouds while everybody else hangs by a string as I start to float. But just because I like this guy doesn't mean that I'm going to ruin his relationship, just to start a new one with me. I always hear people say "If you love something set it free, and if it loves you back it'll come back to you." Well usually I would say "That's nothing but B.S!" But I'm gonna try this time. Because it's time to take risks and make chances. Or maybe I'm just afraid of getting hurt. Either way, I'm gonna let him come to me.

No matter how many times I tell myself. I'm not over my ex. I mean how can I. He's funny, gives advice, and he's still the guy I fell in love with. The only reason we broke up was because I was taking my friend's advice. She always said bad stuff about him and all my friends started telling me to dump him, not that I'm blaming them. I was the one who made the foolish mistake to listen to them and because of it, I am the one who is heartbroken. Then again maybe I deserve it. I've always made mistakes and I'm tired of it. Sometimes it hurts to be the shy, nice, and sweet girl. One thing is that no matter what happens, I'll be the sweetest Bitch that you'll ever meet. Sometimes it feels good to be Not-So-Good.

I'm so confused. I have no idea what to do.  I feel so selfish for thinking that i want to be single when i'm with a really great guy who really likes me. I feel like i used him just to get over my ex. If i did i feel like im so evil. I honestly think that maybe I do like him but what I realized is that I haven't seen him since Sunday and I haven't missed him one bit. Whats wrong with me! I knew that i shouldn't have got with him while i had feelings for my ex. Either i don't love him or I just don't want to get heartbroken while my heart is already cracked. I should've let him dump me while i had a chance, but now it's too late. There's no turning back now.                                              - That Girl 

Boyfriends are the thing girls want most. They want to have boyfriends to make them feel special. Other girls use boyfriends for popularity or sometimes just for sex. You don't always need a boyfriend to feel special or beautiful, thats why you have family. Family members can make you feel special too. Family can also break your heart too.  Parents. They're the worst problem say you love someone so much that you get with them and then your parents find out.  Some parents are cool and want to meet the nice boy but others, they tell you to break up with them and they don't even want to listen to your side of the story. Boyfriends are good and all but they always come with a price.

I dont understand how my family is so clueless not not tell whats been going on since the 5th grade. They think that a person can be so predictable, but sometimes a single smile can hide all the tears that a person's been holding in since the 5th grade. They tell me everything is gonna be fine, but is still going on. 8th grade, seems like a new school year but its not the same names, rumors, but sometimes not always the same bullies. Looking at every single one noticing the same bullies along with some ex best friends. How can someone who used to be your friend become your bully? Well don't ask me I'm only a victim since 5th grade. I've been holding all my feelings and tears but it ends up backfiring. Its like I'm a jar and all my feelings and tears are the water. A jar can only hold in so much water. The more water you put in a jar the more some comes splashing out. Sometimes suicide is the only option that comes to my mind. Not once. Not twice. But Three times a ...

Love  ♥ Love will always find you, whether your a stubborn old man or a heartless thief. Either way love will travel through your broken heart pieces, or the gaps in your heart that grew through each passing day of the one that got away. You shouldn't be stubborn with love because love is a blessing, not a curse. If you already have a lover, cherish those moments because sometimes the people we love get taken from our hearts within a blink of an eye. If you are a lonely person don't feel depressed or sad because you have no one, be grateful that God or Mother Nature is choosing the perfect person for you top spend your life with.  Love wont always be painful, it will also turn you into the person that you'll be for the rest of your life.                                   - That Girl  ♥

My Dream  As we grow up eventually our dreams fade as if they were nothing but  water flowing down the river bend. Although some of us might live our dreams, others vanish like thin air and become nothing but a silly dream. But as shakesheare once said "Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them." So in order to achieve my dream i must try my best and eventually it'll come true.                                   - That Girl   ღ