Blogging Through Life

                    So yesterday was the first day of high school for me. You should of saw me. I remember constantly saying to my mom " Do I have to go? Can you come with me? Where do I go? What do I do" and so on. But at least she walked me to the door. But I managed not to look to scared. But eventually I got lost. Bummer. I also fell down but when no one was looking. Thank goodness. But today we talked about the word resilient and it reminded me of how I picked myself up when I fell down, and how I didn't give up and call my mom to pick me up. Although she probably would've ignored me. But anyways If you can believe in yourself, you can overcome any obstacle you come to face.                                                            ~ Good luck ~          ...

      School starts next week.... Yay. I guess. To be honest I went to take a tour since this year will be the first year of high school. Anyways, it felt weird I was walking the halls knowing that I would never see my best friend ever again.Then later today I found out I won't be seeing either of my two best friends. Yeah I know it sucks. But everything is going to change. But on the bright side I'm getting a new phone and a camcorder. Hopefully I will be able to get a cat this year. But If I don't I made a promise to myself to volunteer with an animal shelter during next summer. But until I begin going on with the future we need to end this year. So once those doors open, I will walk in with my head held high and put on my most confident look I have because my life starts with me.                                                ~ Good luck ~  ...

Why is it that when I try to do something, I always ends up screwing up. The title means that I hate myself for doing things that I can't forgive myself. I know I'm not exaggerating because my own sister called me an asshole, then slammed the door in my face. Mandy, If you ever read this I just want to say I'm sorry and I hate myself for everything I did. Also if you noticed the scars on my forehead, I just wanted to say that you didn't cause those. You probably think this post is disturbing but then if you compare yourself to me then you should be grateful that you're one of those lucky people out there who has people who care about you and you can trust to tell them everything. I've never actually caused self harm but I can't take it. A new school comes with new bullies and I can tell the next 4 years are going to be hell.                                               ...