Blogging Through Life

Recently I've wanted to ask my ex if he hates me but a bunch of my old friends sit with him and I don't want them to be like "She can't get over him and blah blah blah…. So I suck it up and messaged him on fb. I waited two days by my phone and it said seen at a certain time. But when I sent my friend to him he said that his phone was taken away and he has no way to get on fb. I felt so stupid. I forgot about what he said and told her to tell him to call me. She said that he said "He would call you if he can but he doesn't have his phone. He's getting it Monday or on Valentines day. But he would if he could……." and out of all that, all I heard was "He said he would if he could."  There were times that I wanted to go up and ask if he would take me back or hoped that he would ask me. But why would I put myself out there for someone who said it was over. I just wish that even though he might not be mine, he'll always be there for me. Th...

I had a dream and this dream wasn't ordinary because in this dream I was getting married. But me in the dream couldn't do it. When I was little and I saw my mom crying on the porch. I hated my dad for what he did. He broke her heart. And when I spent the night at my sister's house. I heard her and her boyfriend(Father of her children) arguing. And now he's gone. She has two kids and lives with us. So why would I get married and go through that. One of the reasons I broke up with my ex is because he was TOO serious. After I saw what my sister and mother went through I promised myself that I would never get married or have kids. It might get lonely but I'd rather focus on my career and college. But it doesn't mean I won't have fun or have boyfriends. But in the end I'll probably end up stuck taking care of my brother. He also lives with us. But he's not as bossy as my sister. But I love them both.                         ...

I'm not trying to sound conceited in this but when I write people think I'm this talented girl who can write anything I put my mind to. But how I see it is me trying to cope with a world with no happy endings. Because no matter what they say nobody can be as happy and Cinderella and the Prince or Snow White and her Prince.To begin with they weren't happy in the first place. And that's kinda how the world is. And let's face it. We have special moments. Happy Moments. But It's not always gonna be like that. Because people don't get what they want, they get what they need. But its not all good for them. But there are those people who are happy at those moments. But lets face. Having those special or happy moments all the time would get boring. It's important to enjoy the little things in life before they fade away.                                             ~ That Girl  ...