Blogging Through Life

I keep telling myself that I'm over him, which is an obvious clue that I'm head over heel and there's no way of bringing myself back to reality. When there's a way that not even I knew. He is my reality. Sounds crazy right? But it's the truth. He keeps my head out of the clouds while everybody else hangs by a string as I start to float. But just because I like this guy doesn't mean that I'm going to ruin his relationship, just to start a new one with me. I always hear people say "If you love something set it free, and if it loves you back it'll come back to you." Well usually I would say "That's nothing but B.S!" But I'm gonna try this time. Because it's time to take risks and make chances. Or maybe I'm just afraid of getting hurt. Either way, I'm gonna let him come to me.

No matter how many times I tell myself. I'm not over my ex. I mean how can I. He's funny, gives advice, and he's still the guy I fell in love with. The only reason we broke up was because I was taking my friend's advice. She always said bad stuff about him and all my friends started telling me to dump him, not that I'm blaming them. I was the one who made the foolish mistake to listen to them and because of it, I am the one who is heartbroken. Then again maybe I deserve it. I've always made mistakes and I'm tired of it. Sometimes it hurts to be the shy, nice, and sweet girl. One thing is that no matter what happens, I'll be the sweetest Bitch that you'll ever meet. Sometimes it feels good to be Not-So-Good.

I'm so confused. I have no idea what to do.  I feel so selfish for thinking that i want to be single when i'm with a really great guy who really likes me. I feel like i used him just to get over my ex. If i did i feel like im so evil. I honestly think that maybe I do like him but what I realized is that I haven't seen him since Sunday and I haven't missed him one bit. Whats wrong with me! I knew that i shouldn't have got with him while i had feelings for my ex. Either i don't love him or I just don't want to get heartbroken while my heart is already cracked. I should've let him dump me while i had a chance, but now it's too late. There's no turning back now.                                              - That Girl